scan day is here!

Alright, we made it! It’s scan day, and I’m feeling pretty good. The festivities begin in roughly two hours and I am preparing myself. I’m hydrating since there will be blood draws and IVs and other various pokings and proddings happening. I’m writing down past test results so I can compare as new ones file in. I’m mentally figuring out which Foo Fighters shirt to wear for good luck.

Honestly there isn’t a particular result I’m hoping for today. I feel like even the best case - that the lymph nodes are somehow back to normal - still results in 10 years of surveillance. But my mindset is shifting (at least for today). These checks aren’t BAD, they’re necessary to keep me healthy. The waiting is hard but it could be much worse.

Whatever the outcome, I’m at peace. Family and friends have been reaching out to offer encouragement today and every message has boosted me even more. This morning I dropped off the boys at daycare and picked up some Chick-Fil-A for me and Katie. The drive-thru crew dropped this postcard in the bag and while it’s a compliment I have never particularly wanted or received, it was timely and just another layer of encouragement on a what could be an otherwise unpleasant day.

I will be at the hospital most of the day and I am not sure what I’ll learn by the end of it. Hopefully some clarity, but we will wait and see. Regardless I’ll do a full blog post when the time comes. Thanks for all your encouragement!